Good morning everyone! I have come out hiding if you can believe it.
I had numerous email's from readers asking when I would blog next, or if I was okay?
The truth is:
Alot has happened since I last blogged and to be out right honest I wasn't always in the mood to blog or didn't feel fully inspired enough to put my thoughts to script.
Right after my last blog entry my car was broken into and everything that made my world go round ( in the most superficial way ) was taken.
- Laptop
-Bookbag
-Books
-Wallet
- Planner with account information tucked inside
Happily, I got everything replaced but boy was it a constant worry.
Let's just say it was a long month of trying to get my life back together and trying to replace everything that got stolen.
What I can admit I took from that experience, is that I learned my lesson.
I will never keep anything in my car of value and I will appreciate everything I have even more than I do now.
Sometimes I think we forget all of the amazing things we have access to and everything we feel we are entitled to. I don't take anger away from this unfortunate experience, but I take wisdom and appreciation instead.
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In the past few months I have met a lot of wonderful people and shared some wonderful memories with others whom I knew prior.
I have lost some relationships but also I gained some.
Some very important ones.
The people who I share my life with mean more to me than anything in the world and sometimes it takes unlikely obstacles to realize this.
I would do anything for the people around me and I hope the people in my life know that.
However, in the past few months I had separated myself from the outside world in the sense of just trying to get everything back in order and back to normalcy.
I guess the fear is, I don't always want to let people in on the situations in my life, or have to explain certain things, or talk about myself.
It's nothing personal towards them, it's personal towards myself.
So I keep my distance.
I will change that.
I have realized that not every relationship in your life ( friends, co-workers, family, romantic, etc...) will not always go your way, or work out the way you intend them, but at the end of the day you should always let the people you love and care about know how you feel.
Sometimes I think about " what if I don't make it through this day? " or " what if I don't ever get the chance to see a person again due to an accident or other complications.."
It breaks my heart to think about if someone didn't know how much they meant to me, or knew the last conversation I had with them was a fight or negative feelings.
Trust me, from experience, it will haunt you forever and that feeling of wishing you could have said or acted differently never fades away.
So, those who I don't always show this love and affection to, I will try harder.
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CLEANSE.
So, for the past two weeks ( since I got back from Sasquatch Music Festival ) I have been on a cleanse. I have been consuming close to only fruits and vegetables and drinking water constantly.
I decided to cleanse because on my trip to Portland and Washington I ate horribly and felt sick 24/7.
Also, in the past couple of months due to stress and changes in my lifestyle I gained a whopping 13 pounds! Yeah, you heard it! 13!
I went to Whole Foods and bought their 7 day cleanse kit and happily tomorrow is my last day.
I'm not going to lie, I haven't seen or felt much of a difference from this "kit" but I can tell a difference by eating fruits and vegetables on the constant.
Sadly a few days into the cleanse I got a kidney infection and had to halt the cleanse process and this is why its taken me almost 2 weeks to finish.
I don't think I would particularly recommend this product to anyone, just due to the fact there isn't a big enough difference to me, but I would say trying to stay on a diet of produce has it's benefits.
However, with the cleanse AND the infection I have also had to stop running.
Depressed.
It amazes me how much my mood changes when I am not on my usual running regimen.
My mind isn't all there and I don't feel as confident as I normally would.
After this weekend, I will be back in full force!
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Lately I have been looking forward to my future and thinking about all of the great possibilities I have my way.
There is so much I want to accomplish and see and I do believe with drive and ambition I can accomplish all of them.
I'm getting really excited about thoughts of grad school and what I could see me doing as my profession in the future.
I have really found a high interest in Mount St. Mary's college in California and I hope to be able to get into their Counseling Psychiatry program.
I still need to finish a few classes of my undergrad and for the first time in my life I don't feel like such a loser about not being finished yet.
Everyone is on a different path and if it wasn't for me taking so much time in school working on my degree I wouldn't have met certain amazing people in my life.
I'm thankful.
There are days where I do get worried and frightened for what lies ahead of me, I'm human, but those thoughts are quickly changed by how much hope I have.
I know I may never get to do "everything" I always dreamed of, but I know the older I get the more content I become on just living each day to the best I can and try to bring a sense of happiness and thankfulness to each situation.
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SUMMER!
My favorite time of year - finally!
I love everything about summer!!!!!!!!!
Here is my list of things I would like to participate in this summer:
- Get back into shape
- Run a half marathon trail run
- Decorate my apartment
- Look more into grad schools
- Music shows
- Camp at least once a month
- Spend more time with friends and family
- Farmers Market every weekend I am in town ( and make a meal that day of the produce I bought there )
- Festivals
- Start a journal ( Which I embarrassingly had a break down last night and started. I think with the absence of running, participating in this cleanse, having a facial break out... I felt really low and had feelings of worthlessness. Having feelings of "am I good enough ? " rushed into my head during a bath, but happily I think I just needed to get a good cry out and re asses my life. I'm in a really good place right now and I think mostly I have fear of losing it )
- Trips out of Utah.
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I can't believe it's been MONTHS since I last wrote and I am going to try to get back into it as much as I can!
Have an amazing summer with the people you love!
XOXO.
Happily, I got everything replaced but boy was it a constant worry.
Let's just say it was a long month of trying to get my life back together and trying to replace everything that got stolen.
What I can admit I took from that experience, is that I learned my lesson.
I will never keep anything in my car of value and I will appreciate everything I have even more than I do now.
Sometimes I think we forget all of the amazing things we have access to and everything we feel we are entitled to. I don't take anger away from this unfortunate experience, but I take wisdom and appreciation instead.
************************
In the past few months I have met a lot of wonderful people and shared some wonderful memories with others whom I knew prior.
I have lost some relationships but also I gained some.
Some very important ones.
The people who I share my life with mean more to me than anything in the world and sometimes it takes unlikely obstacles to realize this.
I would do anything for the people around me and I hope the people in my life know that.
However, in the past few months I had separated myself from the outside world in the sense of just trying to get everything back in order and back to normalcy.
I guess the fear is, I don't always want to let people in on the situations in my life, or have to explain certain things, or talk about myself.
It's nothing personal towards them, it's personal towards myself.
So I keep my distance.
I will change that.
I have realized that not every relationship in your life ( friends, co-workers, family, romantic, etc...) will not always go your way, or work out the way you intend them, but at the end of the day you should always let the people you love and care about know how you feel.
Sometimes I think about " what if I don't make it through this day? " or " what if I don't ever get the chance to see a person again due to an accident or other complications.."
It breaks my heart to think about if someone didn't know how much they meant to me, or knew the last conversation I had with them was a fight or negative feelings.
Trust me, from experience, it will haunt you forever and that feeling of wishing you could have said or acted differently never fades away.
So, those who I don't always show this love and affection to, I will try harder.
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" The ride is in what we make..."
CLEANSE.
So, for the past two weeks ( since I got back from Sasquatch Music Festival ) I have been on a cleanse. I have been consuming close to only fruits and vegetables and drinking water constantly.
I decided to cleanse because on my trip to Portland and Washington I ate horribly and felt sick 24/7.
Also, in the past couple of months due to stress and changes in my lifestyle I gained a whopping 13 pounds! Yeah, you heard it! 13!
I went to Whole Foods and bought their 7 day cleanse kit and happily tomorrow is my last day.
Sadly a few days into the cleanse I got a kidney infection and had to halt the cleanse process and this is why its taken me almost 2 weeks to finish.
I don't think I would particularly recommend this product to anyone, just due to the fact there isn't a big enough difference to me, but I would say trying to stay on a diet of produce has it's benefits.
However, with the cleanse AND the infection I have also had to stop running.
Depressed.
It amazes me how much my mood changes when I am not on my usual running regimen.
My mind isn't all there and I don't feel as confident as I normally would.
After this weekend, I will be back in full force!
*********************************************
Lately I have been looking forward to my future and thinking about all of the great possibilities I have my way.
There is so much I want to accomplish and see and I do believe with drive and ambition I can accomplish all of them.
I'm getting really excited about thoughts of grad school and what I could see me doing as my profession in the future.
I have really found a high interest in Mount St. Mary's college in California and I hope to be able to get into their Counseling Psychiatry program.
I still need to finish a few classes of my undergrad and for the first time in my life I don't feel like such a loser about not being finished yet.
Everyone is on a different path and if it wasn't for me taking so much time in school working on my degree I wouldn't have met certain amazing people in my life.
I'm thankful.
There are days where I do get worried and frightened for what lies ahead of me, I'm human, but those thoughts are quickly changed by how much hope I have.
I know I may never get to do "everything" I always dreamed of, but I know the older I get the more content I become on just living each day to the best I can and try to bring a sense of happiness and thankfulness to each situation.
*********************************
SUMMER!
My favorite time of year - finally!
I love everything about summer!!!!!!!!!
Here is my list of things I would like to participate in this summer:
- Get back into shape
- Run a half marathon trail run
- Decorate my apartment
- Look more into grad schools
- Music shows
- Camp at least once a month
- Spend more time with friends and family
- Farmers Market every weekend I am in town ( and make a meal that day of the produce I bought there )
- Festivals
- Start a journal ( Which I embarrassingly had a break down last night and started. I think with the absence of running, participating in this cleanse, having a facial break out... I felt really low and had feelings of worthlessness. Having feelings of "am I good enough ? " rushed into my head during a bath, but happily I think I just needed to get a good cry out and re asses my life. I'm in a really good place right now and I think mostly I have fear of losing it )
- Trips out of Utah.
*********************
I can't believe it's been MONTHS since I last wrote and I am going to try to get back into it as much as I can!
Have an amazing summer with the people you love!
XOXO.
